the things we fear
"who is he?" I asked, "the guy who lives next door?"
"he's a lawyer, 40, lives alone," she said, opening the door to the empty apartment unit she was showing that day
I thought about him. My nightmare. 40 and living alone
maybe it reminded me of my divorced mom who now lived alone
I was 24 then
this morning I walked through Venice beach in the early morning as the sun was rising
along the boardwalk to the coffee shop as music played in my ears and homeless people stirred and runners ran and the ferris wheel lit up in the distance on the Santa monica pier with Malibu far in the distance amid the pink colors of the early morning
42 and living alone isn't so bad