what if it does matter

it's easy to step back and look at the x-axis

and peer down it far into the distance and think

that over a long enough time frame

everything we do is dust

maybe we are drawn to this nihilism, so that we can be more carefree

but what if there is something that we cannot see

which is that we are born into heaven at birth

and the shittyness of this life around us is our collective choice?

made by people who convinced themselves that life was suffering and merely a weigh station

what if we've made things this way when they were not supposed to be?

what if everything that we do matters?

not in a small way but in a big way

what if everything we do changes the universe itself? and we just don't see it because our eyes are obsessed with size? our minds are obsessed with a place we will never be?

such that, far from having far insignificant lives in this unknown universe

we have tremendously significant human, cosmic lives

maybe we just got lost

and wanted to believe we didn't matter

so it would take the responsibility for this existence

off of our shoulders